The Ramblings and Wanderings

Here is an excerpt from my journal, about on of my first Soul flights (slightly edited and shortened) it is a few years old now:
I was trying to visualize an entry in the earth when, suddenly I am in a cave. It is a massive cave, made of grey and black rough rock; the floor is kind smooth though. The cave is roughly circular and has a very high roof.
On one wall of the cave, but not in the centre, kind of to the side, is the entrance. Through this I see green land and forest and mountainside, I know that is the way to the MiddleWorld.
Moving to the left hand wall from the entrance is a waterfall coming from the rock wall. It is clean, clear water that flows into a pool, out of the pool, crisscross the caves floor into a pool near the center of the cave and then out the entrance, into the world.
Opposite the entrance is a smaller opening, it is shaped like a vagina, with labia and everything, and this is another exit. The opening has darker rocks around it. Through the opening is a small cave with a hole in the floor, this too is vulva shaped. I know that it is the entrance to the Lowerworld.
Along the back wall, beside the entrance to the Underworld, sits a Goddess. As my soul’s eyes gaze upon Her, I know in my heart this is the Mother Earth, goddess of the land, showing Herself to me in Her very act of constant creation and destruction. She is massive, huge and completely naked. Sitting, Her thigh is as thick as I am tall.
She sits, on the floor with her back against the wall, in a cross between a Buddha posture and the birth position. She is very fat, with great rolls of flesh everywhere. She is fat like a woman who has had many children; Her breasts swell down to Her great belly. Her skin is mottled like all of the colors of humans mixed up together, but She is also a little bit red too. I cannot see Her face, and I know She wears crown, but cannot see it. From between Her Great fat legs, menstrual blood trickles out and joins in with the water in the center pool, before flowing out into the world. I know this is the lifeblood of the land, and creative energy of Her, the sacred waters flowing into the universe. I walk right through this warm flow of blood, less than ankle high.
Further along the wall, stands a God, here the roof is much higher, and He towers so tall I cannot reach His knees. The roof opens up, right above Him, letting His sunlight come through and strike the waters in the center pool. His penis is erect and it drizzles fluid that mixes with the blood and waters. He has the antlers of a stag and stands as though on guard. His skin is like the Goddess’s.
Along the wall on his right hand His and to the left of the entrance, the wall is almost empty looking, except for a small juniper tree that grows along the wall; it is old and gnarled and has red bark and green-blue needles/leaves. Its roots run into the center pool.
I step forward and kneel before each God, and tell them I seek to honour them and learn from them and about them. I get no reaction from the God, but I feel I should go to the Goddess. As I come to her, She lifts me up and sits me on Her great lap like a child. I lean back against her belly and I am warm and comforted. The words: The Goddess is strong, The Goddess is soft” come to me and I chant it over and over in my mind. She strokes me like a cat and I feel a powerful, overwhelming love. This is my Mother.
After a while, She lifts me off her and sets me on the ground near the Underworld exit. I go towards the hole in the floor. I am scared, and unsure, I turn to her and ask if I must go down. She feels I am afraid. She raises Her ands and a bird flies out, and towards me. At first I cannot see it well, and I wonder if it is a wren or robin, but then it is a small brown and white owl. I ask the owls name and it spells Ceres in my mind, but we decide to call him Cres. I thank the Goddess and Cres heads into the exit.
I follow Cres and stand at the hole. I know I must go in. Cres waits, hovering above me. I jump feet first down the hole.
I am sliding down a stone, ribbed tube. It is of dark rock with a light behind it. Cres flies above me, I am afraid I will lose him, so I reach up and grab him and hold him close to me. As we go down, I see clear crystals growing out of the walls of the tunnel. Cres says to grab one, so I grab a real big one on my way past it. It breaks off into my hand. Suddenly I know I must keep it, I push it into my chest, I really feel it go into my body. It is so big I am afraid it won’t go in; Cres says to go slow and careful. I push it in all the way as we land at the bottom of the tunnel. The crystal comes out of my left palm a little ways, but it is not in my way to grab things.
At the bottom of the tunnel is a browner, smoother cave. It has the same waterfall. But it is empty, except for purple crystals growing in clumps. There is an opening that leads to steep mountains with forests; I know that this is the Underworld. I go towards the opening, but Cres stops me. I must take a purple crystal. The one I pick is shorter but fatter than the clear one. I pick it like a flower with my right hand. Now it sticks out my right hand like the other one, but they are not in the way.
Cres leads me back to the tunnel and we go back up the way we came.
I take my crystals to the Goddess, she tells me the clear one is my power and the purple one is hers. I am humbled and great full, though I do not truly understand what it means.
Cres and I sit, between her legs for a while, in the blood, leaning on her thigh. I chant, “The Goddess is strong, the Goddess is soft”
Then Cres tells me I must go, he will wait for me. I bid farewell to the Gods, they don’t really answer, but I feel they will wait for me to come back. I walk out of the cave with my crystals in my hands.
And come back to the MiddleWorld…

~ Property of Juniper and Walking the Hedge